Absolute Disaster.....

I feel like an utter and total idiot. Things have gone completely pear-shaped with my Harvard application and it is completely my fault. The main thing is that I got the deadline wrong - I thought it was today the 3rd of January but it turns out it was yesterday. I really shouldn't have procrastinated for so long but I thought I could have finished it off today. Things have not been easy seeing that I was pretty much marooned in the lodge over the past 12 days or so, but I really should have checked the deadline and furthermore I still had yesterday to finish it, which I didn't. Now I went to all the trouble of getting things posted, to get recommendations and to write my statement of intention for nothing.

Seeing that I decided not to apply to the M.A at Yale - too much economics focus, lack of funding opportunities, it leaves me with just Columbia and Georgetown. I must definitely apply to Oxford and maybe LSE now.

I really can't believe this has happened. I am simultaneously utterly and totally depressed and so angry with myself. I really have to start taking life seriously - this is an utter and total joke, even given all the extenuating circumstances. This kind of foolishness can change destinies.

Cold comfort: there is always next year.

Update: I have since finished off my Georgetown application and got it sent off. Hopefully there will be a good chance for that one. But reality still stands: I need to get my life sorted.

On a happier note, I had dinner with Julie at the Noodle Bar. It was nice getting some proper food down me instead of the microwavable stuff that I had been eating previously.